Its 3pm now. I was lying on my bed looking at my brother's photograph.. I miss him so much... Its been 3 years.. I miss his company. I miss playing with him. Everytime i think back of the past when i always bullied him and not treasuring him enough, i hate myself so much that i would give up anything just to atone for my sins. How i wish time would rewind... i also did not have the chance to say goodbye to him.. How i would love to go back in time and hug him and say to him " you're going to heaven tomorrow kai, god will take care of you.." I just miss him so much.. And i would never ever be able to forgive myself for my horrible and indiscribable treatment towards him. I wish i could take it all back. But its too late... Kai, please forgive kor.. please forgive my immaturity.. It wasn't fair for you, it wasn't fair for you at all..