PANIC

What the hell is this la. I just bought a com on friday Practically installed nothing but itunes and transfered one or two games over to the com. The com had a screwed problem la. "ERROR" THE Blue screen. WTF? the games did not cause ny problems on my laptop whichever. Furthermore, i used MCFEE to check for viruses. Clearly, there were none. Which computer causes problems 2 days after purchase? thoughts are running through my head now. Could the virus have missed out on the possibility that the games i transfered contained viruses? Could the games EVEN have VIRUSES? Damn. I feel like a dick. I'm panicking. The com cant function properly now. I cant even start windows up. I need help.

Its 3pm now. I was lying on my bed looking at my brother's photograph.. I miss him so much... Its been 3 years.. I miss his company. I miss playing with him. Everytime i think back of the past when i always bullied him and not treasuring him enough, i hate myself so much that i would give up anything just to atone for my sins. How i wish time would rewind... i also did not have the chance to say goodbye to him.. How i would love to go back in time and hug him and say to him " you're going to heaven tomorrow kai, god will take care of you.." I just miss him so much.. And i would never ever be able to forgive myself for my horrible and indiscribable treatment towards him. I wish i could take it all back. But its too late... Kai, please forgive kor.. please forgive my immaturity.. It wasn't fair for you, it wasn't fair for you at all..